Confessions of a Former Guru
A feature documentary film by Élisabeth Feytit & Jessica Schab.
Produced by l'Esprit & la Matière, Temps noir and Alpha Zoulou Films.
Expected date of release: 2022.
After 10 years of a life of spiritual leader, Jessica Schab, a.k.a. Jessica Mystic, chose to abandon her Crystal Child mission and began a long journey of mind deconditioning from the esoteric ideas that had ruled her life for so long.
 
Her outstanding story brings me back to my own journey, a far more ordinary one.
 
Together, we explore the intricacies of New Age beliefs and their load of pseudo-science, fake news, conspiracy theories, and ‘spiritual’ practices of all kinds.

This documentary takes us into the mysteries of gullibility, fantasy and self-deception, and makes us question why we give them so much power over our thinking. Through an unusual story, we discover how well-meaning beliefs so often lead to unsuspected dramatic consequences.
It challenges us to be more sceptical and to detect the numerous psychological pitfalls we don't think we are susceptible to.

Authors note
We all know people who have discovered a new practice that “changed their life” or who praise the power of positive thinking. They are maybe even starting to say disturbing things or to de-socialize.

Fake news are everywhere and it’s difficult to escape their insidious sway. A growing number of people turn to more or less dangerous alternative medicine and seek answers to their existential questions in esoteric practices mostly promoted by self-help and business management workshops.

With the information revolution brought by the Internet, 'positive thinking', 'energy healing', 'illuminati conspiracies', 'sacred feminine' or 'Indigo childen' have now become mainstream. The websites, blogs and forums that convey these beliefs in a viral way and multiply extraordinary (if not magical) claims are all based on a stream of thought particularly lively today: the New Age.

Also, it's not rare that a simple yoga or meditation class use the main themes of that multifaceted spirituality: referral to induism (reincarnation, energetic body, chakras) and Eastern traditions (Qi energy, traditional medicine); spiritual awakening and communication with spiritual entities; search for the divine essence everyone is supposed to carry; return to nature; personal achievement and search for harmony. As part of neo-shamasim, the consumer/follower is also encouraged to use psychoactive substances such as ayahuaska and iboga, or stay in sweat lodges.

In 2018, a report from the French inter-ministerial authority of fight against sectarian aberrations specifically alerted on the increasing damages of such practices, which main ideas now enter the health and education circles.

Jessica Schab’s testimonial as an emblematic figurehead of the New Age movement offers us a unique perspective.
At a time when that spirituality and the fear of the Illuminati were not that common, she was the first one to film herself to spread her message thanks to videos, hence initiating the wave of new gurus that are now multiplying on the Internet.

Known at the time as the first Crystal Child ever incarnated on Earth to reveal us to our divine nature and to free us from the Matrix where the Illuminati maintain us, she is today the only one to have lived at the heart of the system and to expose its dangers.

Walking away from life as a spiritual leader is rare and courageous; talking about it publicly is even more so. Yet, never before has an ex-guru offered a critical analysis of the mechanics of becoming one, and then leaving.

Because the New Age phenomenon reaches more and more people, the film will also tell the journey of a far more ordinary believer: that of the Director and Co-author of this film, Élisabeth Feytit.
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